A conversation with courage

Possibly the hottest piece of my career so far hovers on the horizon.

We’re not talking breaking political news or even a critical review, no scandal, sex, or groundbreaking discovery.

That’s true, but for me it might as well be. It’s high end, controversial, and coveted in journalistic circles. I’m scared.

Why are you scared?

I don’t know really. I feel paralysed with it.

But if you were writing for your professor 25 years ago, you wouldn’t be afraid.

True. But he’d be there to guide me, and all I’d be afraid of was a grade. This time my reputation is on the line – my future.

Do you think you can’t do it?

No. I can do it.

Do you think you’re too stupid?

No. I’m not too stupid.

So, you’re afraid of yourself.¬†You’re afraid that this one event could determine your entire future worth.

Possibly yes.

But no single event determines your entire future worth. There are always opportunities to try again. You should let yourself drop all that pressure; you should try to enjoy the opportunity. Enjoy your own life, with its failures and successes, savour what you’re doing. Because what you’re doing today is more exciting than what you did yesterday; and that’s enough for now. Isn’t it?